Away in Hawaii and a sweet memory of you, Son....

Home away from home.   It's breezy, blue skies warm bright sun,  in Big Island.  My favorite place to be.  I let go and the calm comes.  I sleep peacefully, although TJ you are melted into my brain and heart.  I can travel to the ends of the earth,...

It's Almost Midnight - Christmas Day 2011 and it means....

I guess the joke is on me.  Not that it's a joke really.   But now that Christmas is almost at it's 24 hour end, there is no doubt I won't be recieving a phone call, as my adult son would have never missed to call, late afternoon maybe, but never a...

Dead, but breathing this Christmas 2011

I just got my first realization of how dead I am , especially to my adult son who's chosen to Estange me, as well as from a family member my sister and nieces and nephew.  Frankly until now I don't think I had been given a reason to notice or really...

DOES ANYONE BELONG TO A LOCAL SUPPORT GROUP OR STARTED ONE?

Being estranged from your only son isn't easy especially without a support of nearby friends and family which I have none.   I've been thinking that perhaps I should start a support group locally for estrange mom's like me who's adult son deserted for...

Christmas is almost here...Fa-la-la

Yes, Christmas is coming, and I wonder what this year will bring?  I recall last year, it was truly a Gifted Christmas, with my son , including Fiance, and  family.  Followed with taking my son, to Florida, where my dream come true of being able to do...

Are you a Parent who has been Estranged by a son or daughter?

I am a mother of a son who's 21, and have decided to become estranged and also has gone off to the wrong side of the tracks.  Why?  I too would like to know!   He was a 4.0 student, graduated from H>S., did graduate, bringing his grades to barely...

I Miss You, but can't stop wondering

The " Whys" and the "was it because of me and my sins are haunting questions that won't stop?"  I am burden with what I refer to as My Consequences, which I cannot erase from my memory no matter how hard I attempt to shut them out. . Oh how I wish...