Rejoice, My Heart sings Praises to You Lord

You know Lord, sometimes I get so caught up in "me" and my "why's" which I allow to over powdered me to the point of total exhaustion.   So instead of concentrating on all my woes, I want this day to start off with THANKSGIVING FOR ALL YOUR...

SO LIFE IS...

I rec'd a letter today from a dear friend, who she and I were very close.  Our kids went to school together, she and I were married to dead beats, we went to the same church, started a bible study together, had a lot in common, oh and she's from the...

WHY???

Please Stop asking.. "Why" shut not just already be done with it and shut it out,why can't you?  However, I can't seem to, Or want too perhaps?   It's too funny or really sad to understand how or why I won't let it go,  There's a saying I'm very fond...

It's the New Year 2012 - ME, MYSELF AND I...

It's all okay, no word connecting to any estrange parents of adults sons or daughers as yet.  I must be the only one on this site.  But I'll admit writing my thoughts down, is really for me.   I would love to hear from Adults who's X's their parents,...

You Never Existed, not easy for me....

So my son, you want for me to pretend as if you didn't exist?  The methods you have chosen are by cutting me off your life line connection, spaming me off your email, moving away with no notice of your where abouts, giving my name sake of "Mom" to...

New Year, 2012 May Mean It's My Turn?

No doubt 2011, had it's ups and downs.   It was great to have had the opportunity to have my son for 6 months last year, short live, but it gave me an opportunity to give him time to reflect, a great job opportunity, as well a great roof under his...

It's a New Year 2012, no word, but at least no Melt Down

It's not just another day, it's a New Year, and a New Day.   My son hasn't even blinked my way, no word, email or text, no not even a call.  And I  thought being an Empty Nester was hard enough.?   ESTRANGED; Me?  It feels worst than be Excommunicated...

Away in Hawaii and a sweet memory of you, Son....

Home away from home.   It's breezy, blue skies warm bright sun,  in Big Island.  My favorite place to be.  I let go and the calm comes.  I sleep peacefully, although TJ you are melted into my brain and heart.  I can travel to the ends of the earth,...

It's Almost Midnight - Christmas Day 2011 and it means....

I guess the joke is on me.  Not that it's a joke really.   But now that Christmas is almost at it's 24 hour end, there is no doubt I won't be recieving a phone call, as my adult son would have never missed to call, late afternoon maybe, but never a...

Dead, but breathing this Christmas 2011

I just got my first realization of how dead I am , especially to my adult son who's chosen to Estange me, as well as from a family member my sister and nieces and nephew.  Frankly until now I don't think I had been given a reason to notice or really...

DOES ANYONE BELONG TO A LOCAL SUPPORT GROUP OR STARTED ONE?

Being estranged from your only son isn't easy especially without a support of nearby friends and family which I have none.   I've been thinking that perhaps I should start a support group locally for estrange mom's like me who's adult son deserted for...

Christmas is almost here...Fa-la-la

Yes, Christmas is coming, and I wonder what this year will bring?  I recall last year, it was truly a Gifted Christmas, with my son , including Fiance, and  family.  Followed with taking my son, to Florida, where my dream come true of being able to do...

Are you a Parent who has been Estranged by a son or daughter?

I am a mother of a son who's 21, and have decided to become estranged and also has gone off to the wrong side of the tracks.  Why?  I too would like to know!   He was a 4.0 student, graduated from H>S., did graduate, bringing his grades to barely...

I Miss You, but can't stop wondering

The " Whys" and the "was it because of me and my sins are haunting questions that won't stop?"  I am burden with what I refer to as My Consequences, which I cannot erase from my memory no matter how hard I attempt to shut them out. . Oh how I wish...

LETTING GO, SON, DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T CARE.....

LETTING GO   To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I can't control another. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the...

Sun Rise, Sun Sets and where does that leave me?

May be I'm expecting more than the norm, so I believe.   But what is the norm?  When a Man Loves a Woman....so the song goes....he'd do anything to prove it, show it, give it, display it.   My insecurity is based on more than just promises which go on...

Legal Age - 21 Happy Birthday Son

Happy Birthday To You, And I'm glad God made You!!  My son turned 21 - legal age today 9/23/90 Wow!!!  I got to sing it to him upon calling him around noon today.   He was glad to rec'd my call and song.  He responded concerning his birthday gift and...

Meet with Adult Son Today, @ his request.....

Sept. 17 @ 1pm meet with Son.  Two days ago I rec'd a cell call, late evening, a Hello greeting and if it's ok to meet for coffee?   A call which always makes me smile and be glad.   Especially since my love life right now is having some riffles.  So...

THE TRICK IS LIVING WITHOUT AN ANSWER

A line from the movie "The Thumbsucker".   Life is hard, and how we all strive to find Joy, happiness, even the meaning of Life.  However in truth can it be found?  So many questions....taking up so much of our mind creating endless turmoil to...

Blogging on line is good... COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS

I have taken the leap onto on line Blogging which to me right now is journaling with online space action.   No friends do I choose to know I'm on, cause it's Freedom in a wierd way.   Also, my friends already kinda knows what's going on with me.  I...

A Prayer for My Son who's chosen to leave home.

A Parent’s Prayer When A Son Leaves Home Gracious God, you blessed me with the gift of my child and entrusted me with his care. Now he leaves this home and begins a new life apart from me. Surround him with good people and watch over...